Do you love your job, Dini?
To be honest the answer is not really.. hmm ok... I've got frustated with my job recently..

So, why are you still hanging on in the commuter line every morning and come to your office every day? Why don't you submit resignation letter and find or create job you really love?

I'm thinking about it everyday and come up with bad headache.. just be true to my self, shhh...!! I'm a loser who afraid take a risk!

Yesterday is my 5th anniversary being an employee and i'm thinking, when will you stop doing un-really loveble job and be true to self, doing something you love the most? Do you want to continue doing this things 5 years more and in the 10th anniversary you will regret something you never did?

I keep asking to my self about, what is something i love the most and really want to do? I'm already know the answer but i'm too afraid to take a risk and doing what i love..

Ohhh babiee, when will you stop being a loser and be true to yourself ?

Really, i still do not know the answer yet!

Happy Friday
Just be true to your self, din!

Today is my mom's birthday and i plan to go home earlier. Before 5.15 pm ! I said it repeatedly.

But hey, don't expect too much. Our plan is just will be only a plan without execussion.

I have meeting at 4 pm (really forget about this agenda) and this meeting should be attended by my spv, bos, and my college. But unlucky me (not me, unlucky us), my no #1 boss invite 2 regional pics to attend this meeting which means the meeting will be in english. Sh...!!!

I have speak in english!
That's the fact no #1 of me. Why? Speaking in english make me blank and can't think clearly. Speaking in english make me feel like the foolest person in that cirlce. Speaking in english make me breath faster than usual and i'm not comfortable with this. My head work double than usual. Tired huh? Yes!!

After 1 hours have a meeting with unknown people from regional, unlucky me, i can't leave the meeting room since bos #1 asked me to join 2nd round meeting with different team, talking about another topic and to be honest i'm not person in charge in that topic, i'm just helping the team to provide the data. But i don't have power to say "no..!", so i just keep sitting in that hot seat with faces like "save me from this hot seat as soon as possible..!!"

In the 2nd round meeting, i'm doing nothing. Grrr, just hearing people talking and arguing each other. Being in there makes me think about what should you need to do and do not need to do if you being a leader. I will let you know later.

Finnaly, at 6pm that sh...!!  meeting finished and just going home.

Actually, i feel like sometimes we jump into unexpected circle, being a part of unexpected discussion, with unknown people but we don't have any choices than accepting this condition and jump into the circle...

I'm writing in english as part of jump into the circle. Hope this simple practice will help me in the random and absurd conversation like today.

Just remember that
Allah Ga akan menguji hambaNya diluar kemampuan hambaNya

With love
Dini